Are They Real? 7/26/05

The emotions I have today I do question
For they suddenly came and they don't seem to lessen.

I know before they were too bad to face,
So often I stored them in my private place.

I would keep on behaving like they didn't exist
Admitting they were there I would always resist.

Now I think back and over me they rush
They really get me upset, they cause me to blush.

A thing I don't know, and what causes me to question,
I am just feeling now what I wouldn't let myself feel then
or are these feelings about what happened then new ones that I am feeling now?
How could that be after so long, how?