It's been along time since I posted here.

Time has really flown and in many ways I am thankful that it has. The past year has been really busy since my other half managed to get new equipment so I can now sing with him when he goes out to perform. (I do part of the time if the weather is decent, but if it is rainy or too cold, I will spend most of my time in the car waiting.) By being out with him it has really detracted from not only my computer time but also from my writing time, since writing is something I do simply because I want to. I have made myself a promise though that I will be at least attempting to put a pen to paper once a week for the remainder of the year. Hopefully this will mean I will be posting a few more of my poems. Guess that's it for now. Pat

So Much For Good Intentions

I really do plan on getting in and posting more often. I have multiple poems and pics of additional craft items I am wanting to share. This winter has been a hard one, hopefully Spring will be a little better so I will have time to do some of the things with my blog I am wanting to do. I want to wish everyone a fruitful spring.
Pat
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It's Been A Long Time

I haven't posted to my blog in a long time. Way too long actually. LOL I am going to do my best to do better in the future. I have been super busy and have really been enjoying the majority of it. I have been making cards, knitting (although not very well), working with plastic canvas, learning to quilt, moderating a couple groups on Yahoo, and have spent many an hour in individual physical therapy and group therapy.

I am posting some samples of the plastic canvas work and cards I did in the past year. Hope you enjoy looking at them as much as I enjoyed making them.

Holiday Memories 1/2/05

Seasons come and seasons go
Some Christmases the ground is covered with snow
Some are jolly and some are sad
But I don't want to forget a one I've had.

When I was little my whole family was there
Then third grade came and empty was my Dad's chair
My grandad died when I was in tenth
But they both left memories of holidays spent.
My first child was born a month after my grandmother passed
But she left many memories that always would last.

My marriage continued a second daughter I had
Eight happy Christmases then sad
Another marriage which brought two sons
And four children of his (we also took care of)
Our home was filled for years with children and love
The kids were all gone before things went bad
I then had the worst three Christmases I've ever had
Just after the third my mother did pass
But left many memories which can never be surpassed.

Now two more Christmases have gone
But even to memories of these I will hold on.

I pray there'll be more even better than the last
But I'm still thankful for the memories of Christmases in the past.

Recovering 10/11/04

Many things in life can make us feal down
Some may even be known by the town.
It could be the loss of a family member or friend
We must come to realize it isn't the end.

Our finances may change
our lives totally rearrange
No matter how bad it seems
it isn't really all that strange

We must keep going
Even if there's a little slowing
We can't presume
To be all knowing

Things eventually get better
Even though not the same to the letter
Hopes and dreams return
This we eventually learn

We eventually stop our hiding
and realize we are recovering.

Extremes 7/22/04

Deep dark tones to the palest hues
Stormy skies to a sun filled blue
Life itself has its extremes
There is no middle way it seems.

When things are smooth it's really great
but more often their not and those times I hate.

I try so hard to control my emotions
So that I can deal with each situation
But no matter how hard I try, there's times I break
and that's no solution.

Someday I hope I reach a balance
So I can allow myself to laugh and cry
Without worrying about the time going by.

Someday I hope I can take things in stride
And not feal like the next little thing
Will make me run into myself and hide.

Directions 6/11/04

North South East West
Forward or backward Left or Right
Which way is best
Would the others bring flight

Is one way better than another
Which way should I go, or does it matter, my brother

I'd really like to know which one is better
Too bad someone couldn't tell me maybe write me a letter

My instinct tells me one's better than the others
But which one it is I can't decide
from the others should I actually run and hide?

Daisies

A field of daisies down the road a bit
All standing so proud by the sun brightly lit.

The breeze that is made as the car sails by
Makes the closest ones seem to lean over and sigh.

I looked in the mirror once we were past
They were all back up straight in the sun did they bask.

Those white and yellow daisies a life could they be
The breeze from the car the hardships we see
Once they have passed, upright we will be.

It Seems 10/11/05

It seems like life has it out for me
Whenever things are good or seem to be
Things around crash in on me.

I start to recoup
The bills are current and not past due
Then once again life crashes in anew.

The latest events really through me for a loop
I ended up as usual in some real soup.
Away out I see or so it seems
But things just aren't happening so that I can see.

Partly I know 'cause I've left things undone
I try so hard to get ahead
But it seems like such a long hard run
One that I have never won.

Failure 9/20/05

Failure is as failure does
How I wish that failure was
A thing of the past
That would not last.

It felt so good
I was doing the things I knew I should
Many bad things I use to experience
Had fallen into the past tense.
But now new things are starting to show
These to me are quite a blow.
So little progress I've made I know.

It use to bother me to stay at home
I couldn't stand to be alone,
Now to leave causes me much stress
To leave my house empty is quite a test.
Once again I'm really scared
Will I be able to pay the fare
or will it place me in a snare?

May My Life Touch Others 7/19/05

There is but one thing I ask
When all my suffering is done
That my life may have touched others
When my final victory is won.

When this life for me is over and complete
May my life have touched others
To have a victory in defeat.

When on this earth I walk no more
May my life have touched someone
And help lead them to the Golden Shore.

I know not when my walk will be done
That is known only by the Almighty One
But while I'm here I ask just one thing
That my life may touch others and help them to sing.

Count Me Blessed 7/19/05

I am a diabetic, My health is poor
I hurt all the time as there's no arthritic cure
But all the same, I count myself blessed
For I AM ALIVE - not some of the rest.

I have lost my job, my health, and my home
I lost my friends and my family through no fault of my own.
But all the same, I count myself blessed,
For I AM ALIVE - not some of the rest.

I am fighting depression and PTSD too
Many don't understand what these things can do
But all the same, I count myself blessed,
For I AM ALIVE - not some of the rest.

Understanding 7/19/05

Understanding life is often not meant to be
What happens to ourselves and others
Sometimes we're just not meant to see.

To understand the why of things
Is not always our due
But often we ask anyways
"Please give us a clue."

"Just a hint to help us accept the things"
Not even many prayers seem to bring.

But faith that it was meant to be
Can be ours for the asking most times you see.

We may not understand the why
But with a little bit of faith we can get by.

Self Love 7/12/05

Love of self is a necessity
Without it happy we can never be.
A life of discontent we'd lead
For happiness we could only plead.

Love of self is not automatic
Sometimes it's only spasmatic
It takes time and it takes practice
To really know what love of self is.

It's not just liking the way we look
It goes much deeper
We need to see ourselves like an open book
Sometimes we see things we do not like
Parts of us we may wish would take a hike.

But self-love means we understand
What it takes for us to on our two feet land.
It means we see the way we are
And what we need to go really far.

It means that we are number one
Though just to us not to everyone
We put ourself first in many ways
In all we do throughout the day.

Even when we're doing for others
We shouldn't do if it seems like a bother.
This message I know off the topic has strayed
But for all who read it I hope a thought is laid.

Betrayal 8/19/05

If you trust someone and that trust is broken,
Be it in feelings, speech, or motion,
If you love someone and later that love is scorned,
It makes you feel quite forlorn,
Breaking of trust and loss of love
Together a heavy emotion make.
Both have aspects of betrayal
And will make many people wale and wale.

Betrayal can eat at one's very soul
Making them feel much less than whole.
One often feels they are part of another
But when either love or trust is broken
They leave behind an unwanted token
A feeling of loss for relationships gone
One's you have been safe in for so long

It's hard to turn around again
And let someone else become a friend.

The Clock 8/2/04

The clock of life is wound but once,
And no man has the power
To tell just when the hands will stop
At late or early hour.

To lose one's wealth is sad indeed,
To lose one's health is more,
To lose one's soul is the worst loss
That no man can restore.

Hopeless or Helpless 8/16/05

So many things today ways to change we can not imagine
To top the list there's too much war and too much famine.

We feel helpless to fight either one
We feel it's hopeless these things have won.

If we'd stop the war and spend the money on hunger
Would things in the world improve, I wonder.

I know when my life hunger controlled,
I fought like crazy for the little I had to hold.

Is war not the same, except for the number?
The loss of what they're fighting for, would turn their world asunder.

Time 8/16/05

Time is an elusive thing
It can either happiness or sorrow bring.

It has no favorites, not you, not me
It exists for everyone of us you see.

Time is a friend or an enemy it can be
For all of us we must just wait and see.

Time can be a motivator when jobs need to be done.
But, it can also bring frutration when ending bells are rung.

If we take the time to plan each day,
Lack of time will not have it's way.

We know we have to be somewhere,
So we hurry to get there -- just to wait
But the pressure to be on time is better than being late.

I'm scared 7/26/05

I'm sensing such hatreds way done in my soul
I am scared what will happen if to them I react.
But if I don't face them, will I ever be whole?

I'm scared what will happen if I admit they exist
Just thinking about them I am making a fist.

Somethings that have happened have made me really sad.
People didn't understand why I didn't get mad.

No matter what happened I just fealt a great loss
and once again to the side I'd been tossed.

Are They Real? 7/26/05

The emotions I have today I do question
For they suddenly came and they don't seem to lessen.

I know before they were too bad to face,
So often I stored them in my private place.

I would keep on behaving like they didn't exist
Admitting they were there I would always resist.

Now I think back and over me they rush
They really get me upset, they cause me to blush.

A thing I don't know, and what causes me to question,
I am just feeling now what I wouldn't let myself feel then
or are these feelings about what happened then new ones that I am feeling now?
How could that be after so long, how?

Comfort 6/1/05

For each person this word has different meanings
For some it means a physical state, but yet for others it has a psychological leaning.
A physican state includes no pain and complete relaxation
A psychological one can cover friends who when you're in times of trouble -
are by your side and hover.

Both of these are accurate but for me it goes still further
It hangs on the promises Our Father has given
He'll never give us more than we can handle
all the time that we are livin',
He also promises to be there to comfort and assure,
Though many times life seems to make these promises obscure.

Companions 7/21/05

Being alone is not much fun
we need to have a way
to share the victories we've won.
A way to get a pat on the back
to make up for the times of attack.
A variety of things come to mind
but what's best for each
is sometimes hard to find.
For some one's family survives the test
parents and siblings seem to be best.
For others a mate is found to be the one
with to share the victories we've won.
Still others have found friends fill the bill
to share the experiences at the top of the hill.
No matter what way for you is best
be sure to have one as it's easier to rest.